I am proud of your 执著 but I do understand that 父母忧愁的眼神.
It's the 21st century. The child is a gift not a burden. But it depends on how you believe it.
If there are times you believe the child is a burden, he will magnify that that believe.
Forget the rest, it's your personality that matters... appearance too (it's reality) to begin a
relationship... but you are pretty... actually perfect if you are 5 to 10lbs less. Sorry, I just
said something inappropriate but honest.
Wish you the best!